Sunday, September 21, 2008

A final baby update and an announcement

As many of you already know, having subscribed to our email update list, our son Jacob passed away on Wednesday. We had finally been making plans to bring him home through a hospice program after being born 3 months early and then being diagnosed with an irreversible development lung abnormality, spending 4 long months in the hospital, but God had other plans for our boy and took him home in the early afternoon, Wednesday September 17th. His father and I are completely devastated, but are trying our hardest to remain positive and cheerful, as we feel that is how Jacob would have liked for us to be. We are having a Celebration of Life ceremony, not a funeral, up in New York this coming Saturday, where we will wear bright colors and will play Jacob's favorite songs. No sad music! Every day is hard and incredibly sad, all we ever wanted in this world was that little boy to be well, but we are relying on our faith and our family and friends to bring us through this dark time.


I will still be making posts daily, as I have lots of reviews saved up, but I may not be responsive to emails for the next week or so as we try to solidify service plans, as well as travel plans. I appreciate every comment and email in support of our little man and I will never have the words to thank you all for the kind words and prayers. You can see all of our Jacob pictures at www.snowshome.com/jacob. The photos start from the day after his birth in May and complete on his 4 Month Birthday the 14th of Sept.


40 comments:

Jen Robinson said...

Oh, Amanda, I'm so sorry! I can't even imagine how hard it must be to say goodbye to Jacob. I'm sure that he knew, and still knows, how much he was loved. But I wish so much that you'd had more time together.

Kerry said...

Oh Amanda, I too am so sorry to hear this. I can't understand what a hard time this must be for you. For some reason I didn't get your email updates (I will go and check my spam folder when I can face the rubbish that turns up in it) so this is the first I heard. I send you my condolences and sorrow at your news. May your hearts slowly begin to heal. Sending you lots of love and sad good wishes.

Mrs.Robertson said...

Amanda,
I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. The last time I read an update, I thought he'd turned a corner. I'm very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing the pictures of Jacob with us... I can see that you loved and treasured every second that you had with him. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband at this sad time in your life.

Lisa said...

Oh Amanda, I'm so so sorry. I can't even find words to tell you how much. My heart is breaking for you.

Vivian said...

I wish you and your family a warm blanket of comfort, peace and love to help you as you remember and celebrate your son's life.

Michelle said...

I'm really sorry :(

Maw Books said...

While I haven't been around and leaving comments these past few months, I remember when you posted about his birth. I'm so, so sorry Amanda. My heart goes out to you at what I can imagine is such a difficult time.

3M said...

I'm in tears, Amanda. I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you and your family.

Michelle

Marg said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time. I am so, so sorry to hear of your loss

Liz B said...

I am so, so sorry to hear about your little boy. Your family is in my prayers.

Alea said...

I'm very sorry for your loss. :(

Susan said...

I know I've already conveyed my condolences through email, but I wanted to say publicly how very sorry I am for your loss. Jacob was lucky to have such loving, devoted parents. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray the Lord will give you strength and comfort.

Abby said...

Amanda, I'm so sorry. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

Serena said...

Amanda, I am so sad. I had hoped for a miracle for Jacob and your family. Please know that you are all in my thoughts.

Charlotte said...

Oh Amanda, I'm so, so sorry.

Kris Bordessa said...

I am just so, so sorry.

Susan T. said...

I am so sorry to hear about your sweet baby. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Holly said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Colorado Writer said...

I'm very sorry to hear of your loss.

Anamaria (bookstogether) said...

Amanda, I'm so sorry. Thinking of you and your family, and wishing you all strength and peace.

Amy said...

I am so sorry. Praying that you will have strength and know grace in your grief.

Jill said...

Amanda,
I'm am very sorry and am thinking of you and your family.

Kelly said...

So, so sorry, Amanda. My heart is with you...

Amanda said...

Thank you all...you are incredibly sweet. At this point, we're trying to just instill some normalcy back in our lives and what better way than to read and blog?!

Lenore said...

Wow - I am amazed you can keep up your blog after such a tragedy. My thoughts are with you. And next time I make an amazon order, I'll do it through your links.

Wizards Wireless @ said...

Amanda- my heart goes out to you. I can't begin to imagine what you're going though. My thoughts are with you and your family.
-Susan

Alkelda the Gleeful said...

Amanda,
I heard about this news through the Kidlitosphere listserv. My thoughts and blessings go out to you. We've had untimely deaths in our family, and have been through this grieving process a number of times. I think it must take a lifetime to move through it.

Bibliovore said...

I was so sorry to hear about your loss. I know that you and your husband made his short time on Earth the happiest it could possibly be.

Maureen

Lisa said...

"Unable are the loved to die. For love is immortality." ~Emily Dickinson

My thoughts and heart are with you and your family. I applaud you for your positive outlook on the future and your celebration of his life.

warmly,
Lisa Roe

Megan Germano said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. Isn't it wonderful to have such a warm community of blogger friends around you during times like these? Everyone in the Kidlitosphere is thinking of you.

Amy said...

Amanda- I'm behind in my blog reading but my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.

Deena said...

Amanda, I am SO sorry...I hurt for you. Honey, if there is anything...ANYTHING...I can do, let me know. ANYTHING...I mean that.

Father, hold this precious Mama in Your arms of love and keep her steady through the coming days and weeks. Help her and hubby to navigate the waters of grief TOGETHER, and even though their pain is SO raw right now, remind them that precious little boy is in Your presence, safe and sound. Send comforters into their lives to hold them up, and keep the words that wound from reaching their ears. Love on them, Jesus, please, love on them. Lavish them with Your presence, and keep them tightly in Your mighty hand.
In Jesus' name, amen.

{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}

Ruth said...

Amanda, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband. I cannot compare with Deena's eloquence, but I echo her thoughts completely. May God lift all of you up in this difficult time.

Kelly said...

Amanda -

Thank you for the grace and strength you've shared here and sharing Jacob with your readers. What an incredibly beautiful boy. His eyes have so much wisdom in them. Thank you for sharing the photos and so much more.

Kelly

Blue Army 2008 said...

I don't know you but I just wanted to say I hope you will all will draw strength from your time with Jacob.

Judy said...

Amanda, my heart aches for you and your husband. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Lisa said...

A and A,,,, This is Lisa from UNMH....I really do love you guys, a bunch. God bless you and know that you have my heart.

Bkbuds said...

Jacob couldn't have asked for a more wonderful Mommy. My heartfelt condolences.

Much love,
Anne Levy
Cybils.com

KTteacher said...

My prayers have been with, your son, and husband during these months. I am so sorry for your loss and will continue to pray for all of you.

Joy said...

I left a comment on the picture site of Jacob right after his passing. I didn't realize you had an update here. I will continue to pray for your hearts to heal and that the precious memories of Jacob bring a smile to your face. I am truly sorry for your loss, Amanda.